I literally am very uncertain about a lot of things.
Transitioning is difficult, but I’ve landed a job in sales for an experience. I’ll give this job a month and decide if I’ll like it or not.
I just have this anxiety with my own life and thinking if I’m doing everything wrong. If I should go back to security to my friends. I’m going to face it that I am homesick. I miss my friends, my job, and my family that I left behind.
I think I just need to marinate this all in, but I needed to get this feeling off my chest.
*pans out to reveal the first flame fading into cinders in the background and ellen pulls out a huge flaming sword as a piano starts up from somewhere in the crowd*
me, pulling out a parrying shield: omg you d *LOUD PARRYING NOISES*
Today is 2/24/19 and it’s around 9 days since I left my beautiful island of Guam.
I miss everybody, my life that I had over there, the same routine I was always looking forward to because I loved everybody I worked with.
But I am enjoying myself here in NY. It feels a little disorganized and I feel lost right now…I got hired, but my work does not start training till March so that is a thing. I guess I’m going to feel like this till then.
I love the snow and the cold! Sometimes I hate it, but it is similar to waking up in the showers to cold water (which I am used to) every morning. It’s refreshing and different. When I first saw the snow, I felt like a kid wanting to play with it in which you should not do with your bare hands… learned that the hard way.
The food prices here are cheap as hell….a big ass bag of Doritos family value is like $3-4 vs. a “large” bag of Doritos chips on Guam is $5-6.. Tax is a thing so I guess at this point I’ve gotten used to seeing the price higher than what is given on the shelf.
Long drives…kills me… An hour away to somebody is nothing I guess, but to me I normally get to places in 10-15mins and even that would “take long” I’m still not used to being on long ass drives the peeps here think is “it’s close by” like no wtf it is not… I love it anyways when you have chill playlist. Oh and tolls! It’s nothing huge, but that is new compared to Guam.
I wish all of you guys are here. I miss you all greatly. Even if we did not get to hang out as much. I guess it’s the comfort of knowing I can always reach out to you guys even though we don’t hang as much. Now that I am completely away from you guys, I do regret not being my best around you guys. I love you guys.
I started playing Stardew Valley on my laptop, I also play Overwatch and I wish I had peeps to play with here aside from strangers. Fire Emblem Heroes (FEH) has taken up my vacant time and when I feel fat, I do pushups and jumping jacks to take care of my body.
